Today,
I would like, dear Lord, to say a little prayer
to thank you for your teaching. You taught with authority whenever
they let you, and you were taking advantage of all occasions; I
understand Lord that, as a matter of fact, your basic mission was to
transmit the Word of the Father. And you did it.
—Today, while
“connected” to Internet, I tell you: Speak to me for, as
a faithful disciple, I want to pray a little. First, I would like to
beseech capacity to learn what you are teaching and, secondly, I wish
I would know how to teach it myself. I know it is easy to err making
you say what you have never said and, with malevolent boldness, I
wish you would say what I like. I admit that I am, perhaps, more
hard-hearted than those listeners.
I
know your Gospel, the Teachings of the Church, the Catechism, and I
remember pope John Paul II's words in his Letter to Families: «The
programme of utilitarianism, based on an individualistic
understanding of freedom —a freedom without responsibilities—
is the opposite of love, even as an expression of human civilization
considered as a whole». Lord, break my heart, which longs for a
utilitarianism happiness and let me in your Divine Truth I so much
need.
—From
this vantage point, like on top of the mountain, I can see that You
speak of marital love as the love that lasts forever, and that
adultery —being a sin, as any other grave offense to You, who
are the Lord of Life and Love— is the wrong way to happiness:
«Whoever divorces his wife and marries another commits adultery
against his wife» (Mk 10:11).
—I
remember a young man who said: «Father, sin promises a lot,
gives nothing and takes everything». Good Jesus, let me
understand you, and let me learn how to explain it: «let no one
separate what You have joined» (cf. Mk 10:9). Out of
here, out of your ways, I shall not be able to find the true
happiness. Jesus, teach me again!
—Thanks,
Jesus, I'm hard-hearted, but I know you are right.